At 25, “You are young enough to believe that anything is possible, and you are old enough to make that belief a reality,” says this article.
It’s exactly 15 days until I turn 26. To be perfectly honest, I’m dreading it. I know that age is just a number, but turning 26 puts me on the wrong side of the 20s. It’s the period that makes (slightly older) co-workers shake their heads and say that they’re glad to have hit their 30s; they’ve issued me dire warnings about Saturn Return and other similar rites of passage. “I went through my late 20s feeling like I was walking with a veil in front of my eyes,” one reported. She threw a big party for her 30th birthday.
It’s a pretty New Age concept, but the idea of Saturn Return, which supposedly happens in the mid-to-late-20s) makes sense. It’s allegedly a period when you’ll be making crucial decisions because one leaves childhood behind (for real; do you really think that people leave childhood when they hit 18? Of course not). It’s when people get married, take big steps in furthering their careers, or just make big, life-changing decisions in general. New Age or not, it’s just logical for the late 20s to be a turning point in most peoples’ lives.
So yeah, I get it that turning 26 brings me closer to that point. But the thing is, I don’t feel ready to make any big, life-changing decisions just yet. I already made one early this year by planning to go to grad school in New York; I ended up deferring to next school year (for a very good reason, though). So pardon me if right now, I’m not feeling as courageous as any spunky 20-something should be.
“Some of the most life-shaping decisions you make in this season will be about walking away from ‘good enough’ in search of ‘can’t live without,’” the article went on. Well, I’ve done some of that. Maybe not enough, but I’m working on that.
I’m spending my first birthday away from home—I’ll be in Berlin, where I’ll be doing some training for multimedia and online journalism for a few weeks. I just got my visa in the mail today, and things have been moving pretty fast. Every step is hopefully one made to that big, life-changing leap. I’m just hoping I’m headed in the right direction.
My God, being in my mid-20s makes me sound like an emo teenager.
bianca, ang layo pa ng return of saturn mo! enjoy your mid to late twenties!