Not that I know the exact date I’m leaving for grad school, but I do know I eventually will in a few months. I’ve been trying to make the most of the time I have in Manila, earning what I can and trying to bond with the people who matter to me, but time’s running out fast. But what can you do if despite your best efforts, something always comes up and leaves you disappointed—regardless of whose fault it is? I’m genuinely afraid for any long-distance relationship that contains me, because I’ve never been good with distance, physical or emotional. I’d rather be alone.